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[Joed]

Great posts.

I have nothing to add, except to comment on the drug interaction/depression comment that Sandy made above. A friend of mine barely survived a suicide attempt, brought on from a bad interaction between her depression and pain meds. They immediately took her off of everything, and her suicidal thoughts stopped completely. It's worth looking into, IMO.

[In The Wind]

Well you caught me after a night of contemplation. Not so much on the act itself as the manner, just OD, no mess for someone else to clean up.

As for really doing it, suicide just ‘aint my thing. So that’s not really a danger right now.

I had not fully realized how isolated I am and that is the biggest thing for me right now. I really have no interest in working a job, but I am looking into doing volunteer work.

So that’s really it I guess, isolation. The no girlfriend thing is really becoming an issue for me, in that again, I’m fortunate as all my stuff seems to work. I just need to get out more

It’s been a long fall for me, and a tough one. Am I still who I was before? In the same manner that an old man is still a younger man in spirit,
I am still the man I was before, only shorter…..
Thanks for the replies, please feel free to contact me, any who wish...

[Jodie Lynn]

I am also trying to deal with the new me and at this point it isn't easy. I don't have any friends who really know what it is like to be in my shape and putting my daughter through all of this with me is also very hard for me I am not married and yes I have a bf but who actually knows if things will work out for the best or not. I am having a hard time accepting my life for what it is now and cry just about every day because of the way I am right now I hope and pray that each day gets better but hey atleast I am still alive right????? I would like to say GOD BLESS everyone of you...... And may he yhelp us all through all of what we deal with day in and day out....




Jodie Lynn

[Ecaynot]

Hi Jodie and thank you for your letter,My name is Tony and if you need a friend you can count on me and I'm sure everyone who responed to my topic will be happy to have a new friend. Jodie Yes I know it is hard trying to accept yourself, I think I am accepting things now and its all because of other people that Ihave met who is also disable.But like you said in your letter "still being alive" I also thank GOD on a daily basis.Jodie if you need a friend....you can count on me.One thing I want to do is help anyone, by being a friend. well Jodie I hope you have a great evening..
God bless you and your daughter. Tony

P.S. I also live in Virginia Beach so there now you have a friend in the area who knows what it is to be in a w/c

Jodie Lynn, on Mar 30 2006, 05:58 PM, said:

I am also trying to deal with the new me and at this point it isn't easy. I don't have any friends who really know what it is like to be in my shape and putting my daughter through all of this with me is also very hard for me I am not married and yes I have a bf but who actually knows if things will work out for the best or not. I am having a hard time accepting my life for what it is now and cry just about every day because of the way I am right now I hope and pray that each day gets better but hey atleast I am still alive right????? I would like to say GOD BLESS everyone of you...... And may he yhelp us all through all of what we deal with day in and day out....




Jodie Lynn

Edited by Ecaynot, 31 March 2006 - 03:02 AM.

[Ecaynot]

Hey people, Its been a while since I wrote anything, How are you guys doing? I missed everyone please lets all keep in contact.
Tony

[itsjustme]

Hi Tony!

I'm so glad that you are in a better place than when you started this board. Yours was one of the first that I read when I found Apparelyzed. I was just so happy to finally find a site where there were people like me to talk about our issues. I say it all of the time. It doesn't matter whether it's a specialist, therapist, counselor, supportive family member or best friend, no one knows what life is like until you have to live it in a chair.

I am a T2 incomplete, but complete for all intents and purposes, as of 3/17/04 due to a malformation of blood vessels on my spine that swelled up like a aneurysm, an AVM, and before the day was over I was paralyzed. I was at such a happy time in my life. I got up every morning and thanked God for the sunshine, and purple Morning Glories, hummingbirds feedings and creamy French Vanilla coffee. I was out of the miserable factory that I had worked in for 25 years doing my own little business thing and in that one day I lost it all. I was never even able to go back into my home because I lived in a trailer and couldn't get my chair up and into it.

But, you know what? I never thought why me? I thought why not me? Just as well me as you, or Joed or Jodie Lynn or Gary Anderson or whoever it happens to today.

Life is indiscriminate in it's suffering. God bless you! God bless us all!

[WonderDerek]

It took a month and a half for me to accept it. After waking up from my coma I was devestated, didn't know what I was going to do, how I would live, and what I would do with my life.....But then I started to realize that I'm still alive for a reason so I'm going to make the best of it. Now I'm a better person for it too. I don't mind being like this as long as I can motivate/inspire people. I've saved a life because of my accident and because of that, I'm okay with my condition also. We are all the same, we just have more9(harder) obstacles to overcome

Edited by WonderDerek, 15 April 2006 - 06:39 PM.

[Ecaynot]

HAPPY EASTER to all;

Have you guys everheard of Tim Mcgraw "live like you were dying" if you haven't then you must get the disc. When I am feeling down I listen to the song, and the words are meaningful it picks me up....
"He said I was in my early forties with alot of life before me, when a moment came that stopped me on a dime. And I spent most of the next days looking at the x-rays and talking about the options".....
You know I would really like to tell everyone thank you. For what you might say......for being a friend just writing to say whatever is on your mind. I know that our stories of life is different in many ways but we could still relate to one other..I guess If I was able to meet someone in person it would have to be you all for you. Tommorrow will be Easter Sunday and I will say a special prayer for all of my new friends. Well
I will go now and thank you for listening...............Love Tony

p.s. If anyone wants to talk and give there fingers a brake here is my number 757 285-9515

PEACE AND GOD BLESS YOU

[Jodie Lynn]

Joed, on Feb 21 2006, 04:28 PM, said:

laura, on Feb 21 2006, 08:06 PM, said:

i really don't like the fact that new people i meet now don't know the 'old' me, pre sci. post- i can't express myself how i used to. i worry that they won't see me for who i am.

Laura...

I deal with some of that too. My husband didn't know me when I could run, dive, ride bikes, etc. I'll be relating a past experience to him, saying something like, "and so then I ran into the house...", and he'll look surprised, saying, "You ran?" It's hard for my husband and son to imagine, but I used to run three miles a day...walked in 15 mile marathons for the March of Dimes...ran with my nieces and nephews on my shoulders, etc. It makes me sad when I realize that they can't seem to find a place for that in their perceptions of who I am. That in itself is a loss for me.

The new friends I meet can't believe that I used to live by myself in a log cabin, waaaaay out in the middle of nowhere, chopped my own wood, hauled it, worked for seven years in a furniture factory, trained boxers, etc. I sometimes feel like I need for them to know that about me, or they won't really know what I'm about...not completely anyway...even though those things aren't a part of my life today.

But you've made a good point. Changes happen in our lives, injury or not. It's a natural part of living. This just throws a little more drama into the mix than usual.

Hey I couldn't help but notice that you said your husband and son didn't know you when you could walk run etc.... I am so glad to hear that you found someone to love you unconditionally for me I have a gfuy and he seems t love me the same way but I am scared it may not last but I believe it is my own insecurities any advice for me????


Jodie Lynn