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Started by hockeyguy , Mar 05 2010 11:44 PM

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#1 hockeyguy

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Posted 05 March 2010 - 11:44 PM

After some drunk a@@hole takes my life, I am now stuck reflecting and remembering what my life was once like. I constantly see sports equipment & tools around my house that I once used. I drive down the street and see people doing activities that I can only dream to do again. I see ponds which i used to fish, trails I used to ride, woods I used to hike, golf courses I used to play, etc....I know there is modified & adaptive ways to do things but its not the same. My friends invite me to watch them play but it sucks watching them play sports you used to participate in and were good at.
Just venting!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no one knows what its like and I am tired of hearing look how far you have come and it could be worse.

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 12:51 AM

guess what , hockeyguy? I know what that is like.
Look! It's a snail! It's a sloth! Able to creep short distances before lunch!

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 01:20 AM

i mean my friends and family doesn't know what its like! unless you live through this you have no idea

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 04:43 AM

It could be worse you brave, brave boy, you.
If I EVER find the fool who came up with that shit I'm gonna cut his nuts off look him in the eye and say "Hey dip-shit, I reckon it could be worse. Could it be better? OH YEAH, ya mean like had I NOT CUT YOUR NUTS OFF?

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 05:52 AM

...& another 'guess what' .. Your life hasn't been taken, just changed. For the better or worse is up to you. :D

"Feel the fear, & do it anyway"

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 08:16 AM

No offence, but suck it up princess. You can either sit and pout or get on with you life and prove that you're not dead. The choice is yours

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 11:32 AM

.. the song....

" one way, or the other ...I'm gonna"

I know it feels hard now.. but you will in time look back and see how far you came and it will make you smile :)

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 04:07 PM

View Posthockeyguy, on Mar 5 2010, 11:44 PM, said:

After some drunk a@@hole takes my life, I am now stuck reflecting and remembering what my life was once like. I constantly see sports equipment & tools around my house that I once used. I drive down the street and see people doing activities that I can only dream to do again. I see ponds which i used to fish, trails I used to ride, woods I used to hike, golf courses I used to play, etc....I know there is modified & adaptive ways to do things but its not the same. My friends invite me to watch them play but it sucks watching them play sports you used to participate in and were good at.
Just venting!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no one knows what its like and I am tired of hearing look how far you have come and it could be worse.





yo hockeyguy,

i know taking away a jock's legs is super tough. you have to go on and use your brain over your brawn. please look at the extreme sports section in particular the hardcore sitting. this is a whole new world and you can suck it up and move on and be happy or you can be misrable it's your choice.

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Edited by mellowgator, 06 March 2010 - 04:10 PM.

hi fellow gimps! i'm a c 6/7 quad and have been injured since 1986. i was in a roll over hydroplane accident and it took hours for the paramedics to get me out of the car in the pouring rain. that definately wasn't my day. but alas life goes on!

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 06:18 PM

It sucks big time
Can't do anything I use to
:) this sucks

Does it ever really change
Go away
Not really
I'm :censored: paralyzed

Will I ever find anything enjoyable ever again
:censored: I hope so cause this is bull shit

How could anyone ever love me now
I'm not perfect anymore
:censored: they won't if I wallow in self-pity

I :censored: hate this life...
I :censored: hate this life...
I :censored: hate this life...

I feel better now
Think I'll get busy living
:censored: this is going to be hard

Ya know, by some miracle I didn't die
My body is broken, but I still have my mind
Maybe I can do it better this time around
I still have my dreams, desires, ambitions

Can I make the best of this :censored: up situation
:censored: right I can...

Choice



PS. hockeyguy, my sister sent me this link, not sure I have the balance to do this, but it sure looks sweet...hope you enjoy!

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Edited by StillFingers, 07 March 2010 - 07:34 PM.

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Posted 06 March 2010 - 06:23 PM

well said!!!!!

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Posted 08 March 2010 - 12:37 AM

Wheel Chair rugby was already mentioned, and I have to second that. Have you seen the movie, "Murder Ball." Look into it. It's an awsome fast paced sport that'll get the blood pumping again, and it will give you that extra support from others who "get it."

btw, venting is MANDATORY if you want to move forward. If you've earned anything out of this, it's the right to b*tch a little now and then.
When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained. - Mark Twain

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Posted 08 March 2010 - 01:25 PM

No one can truly understand what it really feel like as each person deal differently and person who has not had similar experience haven,t got a clue what it is like. We have all been through this stage, and some fared better than others. It is a big adjustment to make, try focus on what you can do and how to do it better. Though it is not the same adapted sports and activities are really helpful.

I feel down when I am sitting idle and not able to do many of the simple stuff that I used to. So I keep myself busy with what I can do and I have less time thinking what I cannot :muahaha:

It is not the disability but the ability that matters

To be where you have never been before

You have to do what you have never done before

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Posted 08 March 2010 - 02:47 PM

Thanks for "venting" we all need a good vent once in awhile. One day at a time..... :)

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Posted 08 March 2010 - 04:33 PM

View PostStillFingers, on Mar 6 2010, 06:18 PM, said:

It sucks big time
Can't do anything I use to
:) this sucks

Does it ever really change
Go away
Not really
I'm :) paralyzed

Will I ever find anything enjoyable ever again
:censored: I hope so cause this is bull shit

How could anyone ever love me now
I'm not perfect anymore
:censored: they won't if I wallow in self-pity

I :censored: hate this life...
I :censored: hate this life...
I :censored: hate this life...

I feel better now
Think I'll get busy living
:censored: this is going to be hard

Ya know, by some miracle I didn't die
My body is broken, but I still have my mind
Maybe I can do it better this time around
I still have my dreams, desires, ambitions

Can I make the best of this :censored: up situation
:censored: right I can...

Choice



PS. hockeyguy, my sister sent me this link, not sure I have the balance to do this, but it sure looks sweet...hope you enjoy!

BirthRight
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Posted 08 March 2010 - 04:33 PM

Glad I stopped by I feel better! :)

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Posted 09 March 2010 - 01:50 AM

Thank you Jerry, that was perfect for a Monday's Monday.
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