pinkcloud, on 03 September 2010 - 09:56 AM, said:
6. I cant lift my arms up above my head well and I cant carry anything above a certain arm level. It pulls of my back
(the doctors said my level of inury had nothing to do with arm paralysis - it is because it pulls on the t-spine area)
7. I have stabbing pains in my legs, and muscle spasms where it looks like something is trying to escape out of my skin (fascilations)
That's what I like about this site......others who have the same issues.
After 9 months of having doctors tell me my T6 herniation was "nothing" and that I had ALS.....I still feel anxiety about the arm weakness following my surgery and the continued fasiculations in my biceps, until I read this.
I can't grab a gallon of milk off the top shelf of the refrigerator, and when I'm tired/fatiged.....raising my arms above my head feels like I have 50lb. dumbbells in my hands.
Prior to the last surgery.....I was strong as hell in my upper body and very muscular....both of which are gone now.
Fortunately though....I don't have any bowel, bladder, or sexual issues, and very little pain.
The only thing that bothers me are my rhomboids on the sides of my spinal cord get achey.
I had a mini-thorocatomy with a 4" scar along my right shoulder blade, and that hurt for about a month post-op.
The chest tube area hurt for probably 4 months, and I'm still numb in the area (though it's getting smaller).
I miss physical activities, as I was quite an athlete before my ski accident.
I was in the gym every morning at 5am, and thought nothing of going out and running 10 miles, and most Saturdays during ski season started out early with a work out at the gym in the weight room, followed by a hard day of skiing.
My avatar is me sit-skiing, but now that I need my arms to walk/climb stairs/etc......I don't dare risk a shoulder injury (which can happen easily), so I have to sit on the couch and watch it snow now.
My wife gets on me not to get bitter/angry whenever I watch a show like The Biggest Loser, or Kirstie Alley's new reality show when they're working out and whining about how hard it is.
I would give anything to be able to put in a good hard workout every day like they HAVE to.
And I'd have a big smile on my face like I used to wear.
Adversity doesn't build character.....it reveals it.