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Hi everyone

Its a funny thing human nature, i read somewhere once that in a small village in India all the people had black and white tellys and were happy until someone bought a colour one then everyone was sad and jealous!

It was a bit like that for me, when i was in hospital i was'nt exactly happy but when i saw people in a more unfortunate position than me i did'nt feel 'sorry for myself' but felt relief and guilt .

Relief that i was'nt on a ventilator or anything quite so serious and guilt because of the 'why not me syndrome anway when i got out the situstion was reversed! all these able -bodied people going about their business frightened me and gave me a shock, i felt i had aged about 40 years and started to feel sorry for myself and deppressed.

After a while i realised this was irrational and changed my thought patterns with difficulty its a bit like the old philosopher Confucius - he said if all the troubles were piled up in one big heap you would be happy to take your little bundle and get the hell out of there!!