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[Squelen]

Not sure if this is the place to put this, and I'm sure there has been many a time when Christopher Reeves has been mentioned on this site but I have just watched Superman on Channel 5 and it just blew me away. Seen the film many a time over the years, but this is the first time since my accident. The irony, the sick sick irony of what happened to him and then how desperate he was and strong willed to not let it beat him… And then of course it did in the end.

For me that same irony Touched home. I was just starting to get better in my head, in myself, get more confident, I was getting fitter running every day and I was finally developing healthy self-esteem for the first time ever. Sure I had issues, as everyone does, and I was working on them finally getting somewhere – and then IT happened.

i hope to be able to have similar strength and courage, and I'm sorry if this is a self pity party… But I think i needed to let this all out. I am so so scared of the future now, and living like this. I've just recently come out of hospital after a year, and I don't know what to do with myself. I just don't know how to do this.

Sorry for such a downer guys – promise I'll try to be more positive in future!

Squelen

[Tetracyclone]

Squelen,
We all find occasions to be terrified, because the prospect of death is terrifying to all humans, no matter our situation. And yet we will die, we just hate to look at it.

As to this particular trigger, keep in mind that Dana Reeves was very emphatic that it was not the pressure sore that killed Reeves, but his unusual degree of allergy to all kinds of meds, in this case an antibiotic which gave him a heart attack. It was the antibiotic that killed him.

[Smileyblue]

We all have our fears, especially in the beginning.. But I think as time goes by, and we realise that "hey, we're not dead yet!", we begin to live our lives as we did before, without thinking those scary thoughts.. Until the next thing happens to remind us of our mortality.. Its life.. No guarantees.. And nobody gets out of it alive!

I've just been through the process of facing my mortality, and I have no doubt I will face it in the future many times again.. I think it might be a reminder to enjoy our lives while we still have them to enjoy.. There is no reason why we shouldn't have a good life expectancy if we take care of our bodies we're left with..

I wish you a good journey whilst facing your fears.. May you learn much from the experience.. ;-)

PS. Don't hesitate to post on here when you have these feelings, fears, need for anything.. Its what the forum is about.. Helping our peers..

[wiggy]

It's ok to have a pity party every once in a while. One will probably have less as time goes on, but it is really tough to get used to not having the use of (whatever you have lost).

I was a backpacker, hiker, runner, and cyclist before this happened to me. I try to look at it like this; I got to use my legs to see, witness, and interact with things that "no one" else has. I used my legs all the time, didn't just sit around on the computer or in front of the TV. I can even say, with confidence, that I have used my legs more than most Americans (we are a pretty fat, lazy, and sedentary culture in general).

So, any time I have a pity party I start remembering the double centuries I used to ride or remember the mountains I have climbed and things I have seen from the tops. I just replay those memories and become thankful for all that I have done/seen throughout the years. Knowing that, at some point in the not too distant future, I may be able to replicate some of these experiences.

-w-