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Posted 30 May 2012 - 09:07 AM
Pain,,,,Wow I am in constant pain..really does not matter if I stay in bed or try to do something productive. It flares to the point where I fear cardiac arrest.
I am having a great deal of difficukty dealing with the prospect of being para or quadra... though I suppose either would be preferable to the Cervical injury shutting done Breathing, or other manner of death. I was really considering suicide for quite some time...Now I figure this shit will kill me anyway might as well wait it out. I wonder if any of you struggled with accepting the inevitable loss of function and living activities. I keep on trying to do even the simplest things like cutting grass of lightly cleaning house, though I know the price will be a few days in bed and unbearable pain. But I keep trying to do them... In sanity?
I am aware from reading many of you had no time and the new life condition was immediate, for others like me it was a gradual a progression of medical ineptitude , combined with that smug Medical Professional arrogance and dismissive conduct towards us. How did you cope with the changes?
I may not make a lot of sense.. I would not find that odd. The strain of dealing with 24/7 Pain at 10+ Level has some mental consequences. But I wanted to post here. to let you know, Your sharing of stories and events, has given me a bit of new hope and a feling If "They" can Make it...maybe I can also.
Lastly on the Doctors: I read the one post about a friend receiving SSI and not being disabled..Wow that struck a cord.......!Same here- I recently watched a friend collect back pay and a monthly check on a fraud- He is plain lazy..But my claim was denied. Another friend was scamming the insurance for a auto accident- He is faking shoulder pain- we have the same Doctor...I am getting Ibuprofen HCD 5mg and flexiril.....with "Broken neck" and and an utterly destroyed lumbar. The Doc has him on 30 MG Oxycodone 6x's daily, along with a list of other meds...I have had to fight to get 5mg HCD 3 x's daily and they refuse to up it to 7.5 or 10mg... I even asked for a patch.. The Doc's response " those are high-powered opiate medications and we do not prescribe them" LOL what a F'n farce... I am half tempted to turn them into the DEA.
I am more of reader than a writer, more of an advocate than a patient... So, I may lurk and read the posts. Thank You so much for your open sharing and know that you have given at least this person- a days courage and a little bt of hope.
Posted 30 May 2012 - 09:59 AM
Get ready to make new friends and learn about SCI along the way.
Posted 30 May 2012 - 09:58 PM
"Life's tough. It's even tougher if you're stupid!" - John Wayne
Posted 02 June 2012 - 01:04 PM
*Wheelchairs are made of a special ocular magnetic alloy......they're "eyeball magnets".*
*I USE a wheelchair, that does NOT make ME a wheelchair!*
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