[Rusulka]

Hi I'm back!

It's been a while since I have posted as my boy and I split back in February. It has been a horrible time and I have to say that although I have had more freedom I have been miserable! We have tried to stay friends but just end up hugging and eventually kissing and then we get mad at each other and he yells at me and tells me we can't be friends then I get upset and end up calling him and we are back to where we started...this cycle has been going on for months. Well 2 days ago he told me that we have to make a firm committment either way...we either get back together and give it 100% or we stay the hell away from each other. He has told me that he loves me so much and never thought he would love again and if he had one wish he would wish for me over walking again, and he has said that he wants to marry me and will do whatever it takes to make it work. I guess I am a bit blown away because he has been convincing me for the past 3 months that it will never work and that he won't marry me and we can't have kids and that he doesn't want the responsibility of a relationship etc. So he has left it to me now saying that he has told me how he feels and I need to decide if I want to give it another go or not. I'm really confused. I know how miserable I have been without him and I can't seem to be without him BUT I have huge fears about the committment I am making and I can't seem to get past these fears. He is a very moody person and I don't know if that can ever change. I suppose I need to be strong with him and not let him control me. I really want to hear from partners of C4 quads...what are your everyday challenges? Is is possible to be in a relationship longterm and still live a full happy life with children, holidays etc...and how did you manage having children when your partner can't assist? By the way I have never been and never will be his carer...he wont allow it. I love this man so much and never want to hurt him so now that I have a second chance I want to be absolutely sure that I can do this. My family and friends all think I'm crazy and should just "get on with my life"...but how do you do that without the person you love? Please help

R x

[luckymom]

I am not in any position to offer advice but know my prayers are with you both!

[Becca82]

Hey. hope your ok. will chat to you on MSN next time we both collide at the same time. its easier than writing a reply here now!
stay strong Sm, and follow your instincts!
speak soon.
beca
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