[Kev-O]

What do you think about seeing yourself walk on old videos. Im not sure how i would take it. Seeing myself walk on old home videos just does not seem very fun to me but i want to see myself walk, ya know what i mean. How did yall take it the first time? or if you have not seen yourself walk why not?

[nomis]

Videos weren't around when I was a walker and I was never knowingly filmed. But I have photo stills of myself competing in running races and they always bring much contentment. Hell, I like seeing how athletic I was and if I say it myself I cut a damn fine figure.
Don't deny yourself. Maybe you'll smile and drop a tear at the same time. So what. It was a great time.

[Deej]

Hi,

I only have one piece of film of me pre-injury, and it was on a skiing holiday just 4 months before my accident - the first time I had ever skied too. I am so glad I got to do that before paralysis. The first time I watched it post-injury I was a little sad, but it is such a funny video, what with everyone falling over - that's the apres-ski as well as the actual skiing !! - so it made me smile in the end - now I like to watch that video because I am proud that I could do stuff like that once and I looked damn good too (though I say so myself!).

[Elzeen]

Kev-O -
Like Nomis, my youth and walking days preceded video cams. Although it was painful for a long time to look at old pics, I can enjoy it now. I'm happy to look back at the person I was then and to remember those days as part of the continuum of my life. At some point my brain must have reconciled the "person who used to be" with the "person I am now" although, for me, that was a long time coming.

[Somebody]

Great Subject!

I have a great video I love.

My 2 oldest daughter were:

19 y/o in 1st year of college
&
16 y/o singing all over Texas

So one night she was singing professionally
in the town my oldest was in college.
After singing we went to stay the night in the dorm room.

I sat up the camere on the tripod and
videoed that night and the next morning.

We all sang, danced, put on skits.
We had a blast together.

I love watching me dance, moving.
My daughters love seeing us together having fun, me upright.

Now my grandkids (which have never seen me out of the chair),
get a kick seeing me up walking, dancing.
1st time she was like 8 y/o and her mouth dropped open,
and her eyes were big as saucers.
Course I was younger and no gray hair. lol

[ender]

It was hard for me to look at old photos at one point. But over time i learned to love myself just the same. I kept all my old high heels to give me hope (i still can't wear them but oh well) and when i dream i never see/saw myself in a chair in the dream.

[Kev-O]

ender, on Nov 10 2007, 11:42 PM, said:

It was hard for me to look at old photos at one point. But over time i learned to love myself just the same. I kept all my old high heels to give me hope (i still can't wear them but oh well) and when i dream i never see/saw myself in a chair in the dream.

That brings up a good question. When you guys dream, in you dream are you walking. I am still under 2 years an in some of my dreams i am walking an in others i am in my chair, an in once in a blue moon i am in the wheelchair but can get up an walk. I love those dreams.

[Deej]

Kev-O

You'll find lots of posts on the dreaming issue in 'Dreams - walker or pusher', here:

http://www.apparelyzed.com/forums/index.ph...1&hl=dreams

Some good reads in there! Enjoy.

[ryan08/06/88]

I like seeign old videos and pictures and stuff, I like the reminder that I am normal It's almost like a reassurance of things I guess...

I found it hard looking at pictures of myself playing football and stuff for a while as it is something I really do miss...not just becuase of my accident as I had a nasty knee injury anyway...but the thing that annoys me about it is I could have gone far with it if I had put my mind to it when I was younger and took it all for granted.

Kev-O, on Nov 10 2007, 11:50 PM, said:

ender, on Nov 10 2007, 11:42 PM, said:

It was hard for me to look at old photos at one point. But over time i learned to love myself just the same. I kept all my old high heels to give me hope (i still can't wear them but oh well) and when i dream i never see/saw myself in a chair in the dream.

That brings up a good question. When you guys dream, in you dream are you walking. I am still under 2 years an in some of my dreams i am walking an in others i am in my chair, an in once in a blue moon i am in the wheelchair but can get up an walk. I love those dreams.

I get that too...Most dreams I'm walking...and when I am in my chair I can get up and stuff...

the crazy thing is in the dream I realise I'm walking and then I'll develop a limp or soemthing...Random haha.

One time I dreamt I went to america and I was walking but then went to go in a shop and it had a step and I couldn't go in haha. Then I was walkign along pushing my empty wheelchair :S